25.6.20

master of puppets

When you meet him, the Manipulator treats you positively and with good intentions from the very beginning, and since you cannot find any mistake in his actions, you think that he represents a friend you have been looking for all your life. 
  During that time, he makes a complete psychological analysis of your personality and, based on the revealed shortcomings, desires and goals, weaves a network of influences around you and, as a true Lord of Puppets, pulls the strings of your personality. 
  At the same time, he makes moves with prudence and cold-bloodedness worthy of the greatest masters of chess. 
He creates a situation in which you will feel indebted to him, in order to establish control and power over you. 
That is why he unobtrusively lets you know that he is the person who can solve most of your problems. 
  He gradually suppresses your Ego more and more, establishing his power over you. However, at first glance, everything seems as if nothing has changed between the two of you, because he still treats you with good intentions, except that it reminds you at regular intervals that you are his debtor, because he is so kind to you. and does everything for your good. 
  If you try to get rid of the debt grip that is holding you back, you will be able to feel all the anger, hatred and cruelty that lies hidden under the mask of finesse. Although he is terrified of physical violence, as something unworthy of his intellectual level, the Manipulator will take revenge on you and hurt you in a way that often turns into cruelty in many ways. 
  The person chosen as the victim simply fails to understand and explain to themself what is happening to them and what they are exposed to. They are only aware of the enormous pain and some malicious force, which "presses" them and destroys their psyche, drawing their life energy. If they try to explain and ask for help from their friends, they will be greeted with disbelief and a weakly hidden doubt in their mental health. 
  Manipulator plays the game that others want, looks for a weak point and then plays a rehearsed role. People serve him only to satisfy himself, he plays with other people's emotions and feelings. Such a man is shrouded in darkness. It's very hard for people to resist him. He is obsessed with himself. However, he would like to pass as a friendly, generous, noble person. That is why he inflicts evil insidiously, out from the dark. He is vindictive to the core. He can't stand anyone better than himself. The superiority of others, of any kind, inflicts unbearable pain on him. He is driven by the irresistible need to hurt anyone who surpasses him in anything, he wants to harm him in any way. 
  He surrounds himself with nonsense (according to his own assessment), in order to look more valuable than he is. He does not admit his vengefulness. It does not fit into the image of generosity and nobility, which he tries to create for himself. He disguises vengeance with good intentions, high values, lofty goals, universal principles, the most run-down and blunt general places. 
  When he hurts someone, damages someone, inflicts pain on someone, which happens very often because he cannot live without it, he does not allow evil intentions to be assumed. He is a knight without flaws, he only serves higher values. If someone was injured in the process - what to do, it had to be that way. He does not hide his jubilation when revenge succeeds, but he presents it as a triumph of justice, not his personal one. He is extremely depressed when he fails in revenge. To better disguise himself, he gladly uses others as his weapon. That way, his hands, at least seemingly, and he really cares about the appearance, stay clean. That is why he needs executors, deprived of his own will, who will blindly attack the one he points to. 
  He flaunts with kindness, cordiality and helpfulness, in order to deceive the environment. He is able to treat someone seemingly most sincerely and cordially and at the same time do things behind their back, without being confused about it the least. For the same reasons, he occasionally flaunts generous gestures. 
  He is secretly proud of his insidiousness. At the same time, however, he lives in constant fear that he will be exposed. The fear of disclosure is at the root of all his, otherwise numerous, fears. 

"A thief steals what he longs for, what he does not have. I “steal” love from every living thing ..." 

24.6.20

take it on the other ride


So, Aldous Huxley, the author of Brave New World, was suffering from throat cancer and ordered his wife to inject him with a monstrous dose of LSD at the moment when he felt he was dying. That same day, a few hours after he was injected with LSD, while he was still alive, JFK was killed. 


… And that's when the all the shit in the world started, from the Cold War onwards. 


The question is - what if we all, in fact, live in Huxley's trip? 


What if the world, in fact, is really just a roller coaster ride, as Bill Hicks put it? 


And we can change it whenever we want. To begin with, you need to understand that you are on a ride. It's just, you don't have to finish the game. You need to find a cheat for the game. 


Your life is on the other ride. 


You know? Like when you finish a castle in Super Mario and they tell you - sorry, your princess is in another castle. It's the same in life - just because you've figured out that it's all just a ride, doesn't mean you're in the right seat. Because, maybe the ride you're on doesn't lead you where you want to go at all. 

What if the others have already crossed over to the bumper car rides while you are still trying to catch the duck on the carousel? And they persistently let you win and get a free ride. And you keep on riding. And you think to yourself, fuck, I feel really cool. But you just think that it's great, in fact it's all the same - everything goes in circle. 


Because, after all, in the end - while others change rides, you still hold on to the duck. 

22.6.20

Star squirt

Sometimes I find it really weird when I remember that we are all, in fact, atoms who came into existence when the dying stars pushed us outside their wombs. We are all basically star orgasm that is squirted into infinity of space, and now we have come to this one place where we keep on questioning ourselves - who are we? Where did we come from? What is the meaning? WHERE is the meaning?

What we are not aware of is that we are only matter, studying itself.

It is so simple.

Meaning is meaningless. And pointless.

Was wird daraus, wenn der Bruno mal tot geht? Wo landen diese Sachen? Wo landen diese Instrumente? Was wird daraus?

  I think I bought too much and the day is coming to an end. I think, maybe, I did not say enough, trying to stay competent and erect. I thi...